r/Schizoid, u/Alarmed_Painting_240
need to wipe, destroy, and start over.
That sort of opposition to being or becoming anything, especially in a social or self-image way, seems to me almost the essential schizoid trait. Sometimes it starts early, sometimes it develops slowly over time. Online or real life contacts, they might end up with similar fates. The moment we decide that it’s not who we are. But it’s not like we know what else we’d be. Not that, I suppose. Or strong associations with negative stuff occurs, like a bad smell.
It can be kind of interesting to see this opposition in so many ways looking back. Not always in obvious ways. It’s not like schizoids only find themselves to be empty or (desiring) nothing, it can be just as well the active undoing of whatever is forming. To start existing even in the most superfluous ways, becomes terrible, boring or just too fake.