Tag: drugs
I don’t want to play the game of life
The most frustrating part is that there doesn’t really seem to be a real solution for this problem because every piece of advice people usually give is like, self-contained within the parameters of life if that makes sense, like every piece of advice people give still involves having to participate in life. Read the full page
Sex, drugs, food.
Being able to get pleasure from anything else requires an incredible and amazing nervous system and a decent amount of self-illusion.
Laško is the answer to existence.
Acceptance is the hardest thing. Because everyone around you is trying to change you.
I feel incredible release. From the things of life, from meds, from all the bullshit.
Back then you’d say, “humans,” as if they were something distant. And sure, we are too, unfortunately, and fully aware of it, we stayed apart, because not even between us can that self-delusion arise, the one needed for the deception of meaning to occur. And so, like prime numbers, like in that book, our ways took part. Mine isn’t really a “way”, it’s waiting for death with as little collateral damage as possible, which never actually happens – not even that, and so come the alchemies in the blood and the desperate wails.
Underestimating Suffering & Suicide Thresholds
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Psychiatry is a pseudoscience (a collection of posts from Reddit)
Disorders are not included within the DSM based on any objective evidence, and are always a reflection of the normative biases of the society. For example, homosexuality was in the DSM until the 1970s, but neither its inclusion nor its removal were based on any kind of objective evidence. Read the full page
Those who do drugs, it’s just because they forget that you can stretch your limbs.
r/Pessimism, u/CardinallyConsidered
Too much ignorance, and we have absolutely no respect for the potential for suffering that exists here. We are far more likely to shoot ourselves in the foot (so to speak), cause others as well as ourselves more pain than we ever thought possible, only to eventually decay and die.
Too little ignorance, and you become completely frozen by fear. You fully recognize the fragility of your body, the consciousness resting in it, and the fragility of all individual life forms.
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A certain level of solipsism is required for a decent quality of life. A certain level of ignorance and delusion are required for a decent quality of life.
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The sweet-spot of delusion. That’s where it’s at.
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Meditation has helped me in very gradually lifting the veil of safety/security. And then psychedelics rip the veil off of your face all at once and it’s just WAY too much. We are biologically programmed to be reproducing machines, and there are many mechanisms in place that keep us from completely losing our very complex human minds.
Derek Muller went to visit Chernobyl… Read the full page
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Umberto Galimberti – Interviews and conferences (excerpts)
Schopenhauer is considered a pessimist, of course: every time you don’t praise or exalt “the individual”, you are pessimistic, of course, right?… … Even poor Leopardi is pessimistic, isn’t he? Those who say “pessimism”… I’m like: are you looking at reality, goddammit, or do you really not want to see it? Read the full page
Translated from Italian by me (WTFPL).
Artists are expensive because they do drugs and have to deal with costly divorces.
Natalino Balasso, YouTube, Redbox, episode 1
The superego is a structure soluble in alcohol.
The first psychologists, in the 1960s, when they introduced psychology in Italy (as Galimberti recounts in an interview).
The first meeting with Alcoholics Anonymous unsettles you not because they are alcoholics, but because they are anonymous.
Massimiliano Parente, ilgiornale.it[🡕]
Why “We Are the Flesh” has a deeper twist ending than “The Sixth Sense”
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– Do you smoke a lot?
– As much as I can. As much as I can. I don’t even keep track. Whatever… I won’t die healthy, but it’s hard to die healthy. What really hurts is living, because by the sheer act of living, we die.
Vittorio Feltri in a home interview
Horace and Pete – How do you find love?
A sad girl after a bad online date, another girl, a guy, Leon, and an old man at the bar. Continue reading
Anonymous 06/09/15 (Tue) 22:18:58 No.2771, hikkichan.com (dead)
Another aspect of escapism is that it is an addiction.
Like junkies, we need ever higher doses and at one point there simply isn’t enough left, so we end up looking at the same shit over and over again desperately trying to remember how it was like when we first saw it, but by then it no longer satisfies.
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Boredom is the real problem of men; humans can bear next to anything when they are distracted, and most of our activities are steered towards that goal.
As for music being a comforting thing in times such as these, I’m sure it is for those who aren’t too depressed to still enjoy it. But music can’t compare with alcohol or drugs, which directly affect one’s emotional state as opposed to music’s indirect effect through our sense of hearing and never fail to provide an escape. Like literature, music is just a harmless form of forgetting the world and doesn’t always work as well as we’d like.
Thomas Ligotti – The Damned Interviews, Tina Hall
Excerpts of interviews to Thomas Ligotti
Three interviews. Read the full page
Civilization has no appeal to me. The Eastern Peoples seem to live their lives more sensibly. Because they don’t have such distant goals as us, the white brotherhood. The East is… «If you are moving, then you are on the right path.» While for us, the path doesn’t matter – only reaching the goal. I want to go to the East, because there I will feel well. I’ll be able to enter the Present time.
The point is – to stop thinking. These days, we have too much information about everything. Internet, TV, radio… You can find out what goes on in the States at any given point.
For me drugs aren’t a specific substance: they’re anything that you’re addicted to. When you lose what you’ve been addicted to, you have to accept something different. I’ve accepted that all these “gods” we have, they’re all teachers. There is one god – they all serve him! Like in Hinduism: Vishnu, Brahma and Shiva – they are one god, who creates in three different ways.
I think we are on this planet for too short a time to waste it. And so, I live every day. From beginning to end, I experience it. I try to do everything I possibly can, take every kind of drug I could, to…
WIth opiates you have the sense that you are wasting your life. Sleeping. Then you say to yourself: «I’m sleeping!» So you get up, and try to do other things, other drugs; I do all sort of drugs, but I remain active. That’s why I won’t quit until I find a steady girlfriend: otherwise I’ll die of boredom. But I don’t have a sense of security, stability, that I could have a lasting relationship, with a future. A junkie pays more attention to himself. All of us are little “Narcissi”, blooming here in this canal. Everything is always uncertain, you are always alone, so you say to yourself: «What’s the point?!» If you had a wife, kids, TV, a newspaper… It’s kind of idyllic. That’s why there are movies to experience another life. More or less, that’s why there is art.
Kamen Petrov in “Invisible”
There seems to be an inborn drive in all human beings not to live in a steady emotional state, which would suggest that such a state is not tolerable to most people. Why else would someone succumb to the attractions of romantic love more than once? Didn’t they learn their lesson the first time or the tenth time or the twentieth time? And it’s the same old lesson: everything in this life – I repeat, everything – is more trouble than it’s worth. And simply being alive is the basic trouble. This is something that is more recognized in Eastern societies than in the West. There’s a minor tradition in Greek philosophy that instructs us to seek a state of equanimity rather than one of ecstasy, but it never really caught on for obvious reasons. Buddhism advises its practitioners not to seek highs or lows but to follow a middle path to personal salvation from the painful cravings of the average sensual life, which is why it was pretty much reviled by the masses and mutated into forms more suited to human drives and desires. It seems evident that very few people can simply sit still. Children spin in circles until they collapse with dizziness.
Thomas Ligotti – “Fantastic Metropolis” interview
You say the drinking is better than a woman And you say the thinking takes too much time Well God save your children should you have them For, to you, there’s nothing if there’s no wine
Bôa – Drinking
Waking Life – Richard Linklater
A thousand years is but an instant. Read the full page
No to the solution when you are the problem
Cripple Bastards – Morte da tossico (“Death of the Addict”)
More than a source of mental pain, today depression is a way of life. Read the full page
Translated from Italian by me (WTFPL).
If you don’t remove the world as will and representation, this mania… The principle of individuation by which we wake up in the morning, we want to kill ourselves, then two or three coffees are enough, and off we go, back to deceive, to kill time. But theatre is essentially the non-place.
Carmelo Bene at the Maurizio Costanzo Show
Bill Hicks
I took my bottle and went to my bedroom. I undressed down to my shorts and went to bed. Nothing was ever in tune. People just blindly grabbed at whatever there was: communism, health foods, zen, surfing, ballet, hypnotism, group encounters, orgies, biking, herbs, Catholicism, weight-lifting, travel, withdrawal, vegetarianism, India, painting, writing, sculpting, composing, conducting, backpacking, yoga, copulating, gambling, drinking, hanging around, frozen yogurt, Beethoven, Bach, Buddha, Christ, TM, H, carrot juice, suicide, handmade suits, jet travel, New York City, and then it all evaporated and fell apart. People had to find things to do while waiting to die. I guess it was nice to have a choice.
I took my choice. I raised the fifth of vodka and drank it straight. The Russians knew something.
Charles Bukowski – Women
we’ve all heard the old women who say, “oh, I think it’s just AWFUL what these young people do to themselves, all that dope and stuff! I think it’s terrible!” and then you look at the old gal: no eyes, no teeth, no brain, no soul, no ass, no mouth, no color, no flux, no humor, nothing, just a stick, and you wonder what her tea and cookies and church and home on the corner have done for HER. and the old men sometimes get quite violent about what some of the young are doing – “hell, I worked HARD all my life!” (they think this is a virtue, but it only proves a man is a damn fool.)
Charles Bukowski – Tales of Ordinary Madness
I know what you must be saying to yourselves. If that’s the way she feels about it why doesn’t she just end it all? Oh, no. Not me. I’m in no hurry for that final disappointment. For I know just as well as I’m standing here talking to you, when that final moment comes and I’m breathing my last breath, I’ll be saying to myself:
Is that all there is, is that all there is If that’s all there is my friends, then let’s keep dancing Let’s break out the booze and have a ball If that’s all there is
Jerry Leiber and Mike Stoller – Is That All There Is?
The Fire Within (Le feu follet / Fuoco fatuo) – Louis Malle
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The Little Prince – Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
All grown-ups were once children—although few of them remember it. Read the full page